A New Beginning

Here we are - another new beginning - not sure how this happened, but tonight I resigned as Lead pastor at FBC in Lacombe. I know that I have come a long way in my life - and God is not finished changing me, it is just hard to be in this process where I feel that God is constantly changing me. I pray for God to transform each day and that is great, but it is hard too. I do not want to remain the man that I am, it is just hard to be the new man that God is shaping me into. There is pain, there is uncertainity, and in the midst of that, I am called to something deeper, something that hopefully will free me, to allow me to be more like Jesus. But it also puts me out of my comfort zone, puts me into places where I do not feel safe, where I do not feel understood. But God understands, right?
So a new beginning, I am not sure what is on the other side - but I know that God is there - and right now, that is enough for me - I think - but boy is it hard. If I was single, it would be easier, only one mouth to feed - with four, my faith is growing, I have to trust more, believe more that God will take care of us and yet somehow use me to help change the world and further His Kingdom. What "role" I play in that, I am not sure - should it matter? No, my life is not my own, I just need to do whatever I do for the honour and the glory of God. So here we go - another great adventure, where we begin to pray and open doors, and see what God may have for us. The "practical" side of me worries about mortgages, driving old vehicles with high mileage, saving for the boys education some day, but in the economy of God, I believe he is inviting us to "seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these things will given to you" (or at the very least, taken care of). May it be so Lord Jesus.