Dancing in the Dark

So another song, this time by the Boss and how I remember those night shifts at Hostess with the guys and Q-107 blasting and many nights this song would come on and we would stop everything and start dancing. Must have been a sight to watch guys in blue dancing away.
But I am using this song tonight to reflect really what is in my heart.
To dance is my mind is usually something that one does joyfully, with heart and energy, something one can do romatically with their spouse. Right now, I feel like my life is a dance, a dance that is slow, mournful, and painful. A dance that is lonely, in the dark, a dance that is simply putting one foot in front of the other hoping not to trip or fall down into a dark expanse, not knowing where I am or if the walls are closing in around me - a dance to music that is shrill sometimes and at other times non-existent - a dance that is painful, that hurts every inch of my body, a dance that makes me cry.
The dance, though hard and though painful does have good things in it. Colleen and the boys are there with me and we dance together holding one another, supporting one another, crying for one another.
We dance, knowing that God is there with us in the darkness, but not sure where He is - dancing thinking of what the dance must have been like that Jesus danced - lonely, painful, broken.
We must continue this dance, this dance will not end, and maybe one day soon rays of sunshine will lighten our mood, make our dance more joyful and allow us to leave the mournful and distraught state that we sometimes find ourselves in.
Yes, there are rays of sunshine that come through in the dance - often they are short, pithy moments that lighten the load of this dance in the dark - they are gifts from God called Paul, Carol, Elisabeth, Tim, Dave, Nancy, and others who shine their light into our darkness with their love, laughter and presence. God does provide in the darkness, jobs, new friends and even closed doors in this dark room of the dance.
The dance reminds me, "The Lord gives and the Lord takes, Blessed Be the Name of the Lord!"
Though others fail us, as we dance, God will not. Many are dropping away, many are attacking, many have created and are attempting to create more pain for us, but as we dance in the dark and yearn for light, God is there - and He says to us, "Keep dancing!" So our family will, those who try and break us, those who try and hurt our reputation, those will be the ones who will one day also stand with God in the dark, and I hope He tells them, "Keep dancing."