Spiritual Director

Yesterday I went to Calgary with my buddy Jake and we went to see our spiritual director in the midst of doing some shopping and other things as well. It was so nice to get out of Lacombe and not have people look at me, like they know everything that is going on in my life. While I like living in Lacombe, one of the downsides is that the gossip travels fast, and it feels like everyone knows everything.
My time with Doug, my spiritual director was amazing. He is sincere, honest and loving and in the midst of my life, he has no other connections into it, except for our time together. He said some very challenging and wise things to me yesterday and I feel so much better for having been with him. We focused a lot on forgiveness and what that looks like and the impact of forgiveness on my life as well as our family.
I would appreciate your prayers today - I am finishing packing up my office for good and will be handing in my keys - when I started on Wednesday it really began to hit me, the finality of this all and it brought a lot of emotion and tears. I know that today will be worse and knowing that this will be the final time that I am in the office with the team, it makes my heart sink and feel bad. But in that pain, God is there and I know that the "Lord is my Shepherd".
This morning, I read Luke 5:1-11 in my devotions and was reminded of the first disciples that Jesus called - and the call that Jesus gave them, "do not be afraid, from now on, you will be fishing for people", and the text says, they left everything and followed Him.
My prayer is that I would leave everything to follow Him, that I would not stay in the place of unforgiveness, the place of unrest, the place of bitterness - but that I would leave that behind.
The neat thing is that this was the passage that God used to call me to ministry when I was a teenager during a sermon that I heard being preached on it - thank you God for the reminder, for the call and most of all for your love. Be with me today Lord Jesus - may I speak your words, may I reflect your truth and may I love as you love. Amen.